Another weekend lost... why is it that I only find it on Sunday night when I need to be getting ready for bed so I can wake up fresh and ready for work?
I've always been one to leave things for the last minute. I do things on a whim barely taking the time to think them through and suffering the consequnces afterwards.
It's been this way for as long as I can remember. The truth is... I've always thought of it as being a negative trait... is it though?
I mean really I spend all this time beating myself up, hating myself for not being miss. perfect and defeating myself before I even get a chance.
We truly are our own worst enemy. At least I know I am.
I always think I need a change... that if i get that change I'll be the person I want to be. Like the person you are on vacation. Waking up early, getting out, enjoying the day, doing things, enjoying life and not letting the dulldrums get us down. Being the adventurer of our own destiny's and not let time pass us by.
So what to do? Continue a life of self beratement and hatred? I think not.. otherwise it will be time to swallow the pills. Life is not worth living if you waste it.
The thing is... I need to get my ass going! I need something... motivation.. something to get me going...
The JUST DO IT... is good.. but I need something to remind me every second.. every minute of the day. My life is worth living, I need to JUST DO IT... No matter what it is.
I need to stop living while on pause waiting for something to happen.
I need to stop beating up on myself.
I need to be positive.